Have you ever had one of those days? Everyone says “it’s going to get easier.” They say it will pass or tell you things like “that which doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger.” But sometimes it doesn’t get easier and you don’t feel stronger – just more frustrated. Maybe it’s not a major thing but just lots of little things. Maybe it’s just the incessant sound of “Mama. Mama. Mama. Mama…” and you just need 5 minutes to find your sanity again. You know what hurts, what’s hard or what’s overwhelming. But do you know what matters?
There’s a passage in the Bible written by a guy named David. God told David he was going to be king one day, but a lot of years passed that didn’t have anything to do with a kingdom. There was no mansion or servants. David worked in a field caring for creatures that couldn’t care for or protect themselves. Eventually the existing king decided that the best way to ensure David didn’t take his throne was to kill him. Saul and his army pursued David and tried over and over to take his life. (And you thought the Bible was boring!) The book of Psalms is like a glimpse into David’s journal. He begs God for help. You could maybe even call it whining at times. He reminds God, “You said I’d be king and I’m not. You said I’d rule people but instead, I’ve spent all this time taking care of sheep. I’ve been obedient to you, I’m trying my best and still, I have an entire army chasing me.” In Psalm 56 David tells God that it’s hard and it’s not getting easier.
He says he knows he can trust God and not be afraid, but it’s hard. Because he also knows there are enemies attacking him from every side. David knows a lot of things, but in verse 9, David shows that although he knows that other stuff, he can also know what matters. He says, “This I KNOW that God is for me.”
Everything changed when David stood on what was true – that God was for him. The enemies were still attacking, the armies were still charging ahead, but his hope wasn’t in avoiding those things. His hope wasn’t that it would get easier. His hope was in knowing that EVEN IN THE MIDST of all that, God was for him.
Motherhood can feel like being pursued by an attacking army some days. (Can I get an amen?!) But our hope can’t be that it will get easier or the load will get lighter – although that would be awesome. Our hope has to be grounded knowing that God is for us. And He’s for our kids. And He’s for our marriages and friendships. God is for you. Do you believe that, mama? Do you really, really – down deep where your hurts go – know what matters? God is for you! He’s on your side. He’s in favor of you. He’s a gift to you.
Sometimes it helps to step right into Scripture and sit down. Sometimes you don’t need to hear God give David hope. You need to hear it come straight to you. When that happens, grab a pen, rewrite the verse in your own words and insert your name. Because the same God who called, changed and redeemed David is the same God who will walk with you through illness, potty training, discipline, confusion or doubt. And that God is for you.
Psalm 56 (RMV – real mom version)
God, help! I can’t take much more.
They whine during the day and cry during the night.
My living room is never clean.
The laundry is never done.
The dinner I cook never looks like it did in the picture on Pinterest.
God, I’m scared I don’t have what it takes, but I’m trying to trust you.
I know you are bigger than my situation.
I know you hold the world in the palm of your hand –
and that includes both me and my kids.
I’m trusting you and trying not to be afraid.
Oh, but God, it’s not just messy rooms and whining tantrums.
It’s trying to keep them safe in a world where children are bought and sold for sport.
It’s teaching them to be grateful while surrounded by ads for more, more, more.
It’s telling them You are loving while the world tells them your Word is hateful and intolerant.
I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.
God, I need you to do something!
I know you see the tears I cry when everyone else goes to sleep.
I know you feel my hurt.
I know you hear my prayers for their future, their health, their safety and protection.
I know above all else that YOU ARE FOR ME.
You are God, and I will choose to trust your Word.
You are Lord, and I will choose to praise you even when it’s hard.
You are God, so I don’t have to be afraid.
I am Yours, God.
And I will thank you even if it doesn’t get easier or I can’t understand why
Because you have saved me from the punishment I deserve
and given me grace I could never earn.
Whether through a hospital hallway or a messy living room,
I can walk with my head high and my hand in Yours.
Do you know what matters, sweet friend? Do you know above all else that God is for you?
You can always leave a comment or shoot me an email if you have questions. Life gets bumpy but it’s also amazingly fun. I’d love for you to follow me so we can walk together – bumps and all.